Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Seeing through resistance

I can't say that anything I say here is, in an absolute sense, true.

But this is how it seems to me . . .

There is no such thing as resistance.

There are thoughts that say, I don't want to or I should.

And there is doing or not doing.

Ah yes, all concepts in themselves.

Look into the word resistance and show me where it is.

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I also don't believe in blocks. (Don't shoot me!)

I had long thought that my life looked a certain way or didn't look a certain way, in part, because of blocks or resistance I had about something. Something was in the way of my wholeness, my success, my happiness. And my not being there was in my control and it was due to resistance or blocks.

How many of you have a block against something in your life, the removal of which you feel would give you freedom? Let's see a show of hands.

How many of you would say that you are resistant to some action that you know would make a difference for you? Raise your hands. Hold them up there. Let me see them.

Okay, put your hands down.

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Now, what if the entire concept "resistance" was just gone? Poof. What's left?

I believe we are back to I don't want to or I should, and doing or not doing.

Where is the actual resistance?

I definitely have this kind of conversation with myself around exercise. But I no longer call it resistance. I can just see that there's this debate that goes on within me about when and what I'm going to do for exercise and this whole world of should-ness around it. Like there's a moral connection with whether or not I exercise, and so an inherent and true "should."

By the way, I don't believe in morality either. Not in an absolute sense. I hesitate to type those words, for the slippery slope that they have trailing them. So I don't want to linger here. But I will point out that "morality" is also a concept, and as we look at it closely, we see that it's made up of more concepts.

My friend tells me that she is resistant to doing her homework. I say there are the thoughts I should and I don't want to (or I want to), and there is the moment of doing or not doing. And I don't feel that the two have anything to do with each other.

The thoughts are arising, and the doing is arising (or not doing), equally, spontaneously, independently.

It seems to me that telling ourselves or others that we or they are resistant to something creates more of the feeling of resistance, or, to put it simply, more tension. It creates this attribute that is seen as negative and as something that needs to be changed. But how can we change something that doesn't exist?

We achieve what we achieve when we do. We hear what we hear when we do. We see what we see or understand what we understand when we do. And we act when we do. Or we never do. Even the word "when" doesn't mean anything. What is RIGHT NOW is what IS RIGHT NOW. And NOW. And NOW.

In this infinite series of infinite NOWs, how can there possibly be anything other than what is right now? Doing/not doing/wanting/wishing/relaxing/resting.

The more we relax, the more relaxed and trusting we are, and look at that: life still happens! And quite nicely, I might add.

No blocks, no resistance, no barriers to freedom. Every appearance is as it is, perfectly and effortlessly appearing. See what happens if, when these notions of resistance or being blocked come through, you simply relax. Find out if they're for real.